Pages from Anna Nicole’s diaries: ‘I feel like a pig’

Two diaries penned by Anna Nicole Smith in the early 1990s reveal a troubled young woman deeply in love with her octogenarian husband and often depressed and concerned about her weight.

Two diaries penned by Anna Nicole Smith in the early 1990s reveal a troubled young woman deeply in love with her octogenarian husband and often depressed and concerned about her weight. “I’ve been really stressed out lately and depressed and I can’t quit eating. I feel like a pig,” the former Playboy Playmate, who died February 8 in a Florida hotel from a drug overdose, wrote in an entry dated August 16, 1992.

The starlet’s journals are among several pieces of Smith memorabilia going up for public auction in a few weeks. Smith, whose real name is Vickie Lynn Smith, noted — in a freeform style replete with spelling and grammatical errors — the beginning of her relationship with Paul Marciano, CEO of Guess Inc., where she eventually replaced Claudia Schiffer in the company’s jeans advertisements.

“O my Gosh!! Paul Marsiano called today to see if I got his books also I’m gonna go to San Antonio to do photo shoot,” she wrote on June 23, 1992. Two days later she details a trip to a Neiman Marcus store where she bought $3,000 worth of clothing. “I’m so happy they look great,” she wrote. “I hope it empresses Paul Marsiano… I’m starving!! I’ve been starving myself.”

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By August, Smith revealed a disdain for eating and sex, and growing frustration with her husband, oil tycoon J Howard Marshall II, who was 63 years her senior. The two married in 1994. “I’ve been really stressed out lately and depressed and I can’t quit eating. I feel like a pig. Howard has been buying me som jewelry but he call me 15 or 20 times a day it drives me crazy. I love him but he aggravates me somtimes,” she wrote.

Her second diary is a much smaller spiral-bound paperback Guess Kids calendar from 1994. The individual entries are not dated but describe her relationship with Marshall, who was ill and died in 1995.