THROUGH the ups and downs of the past 20 months, the one constant in Zaheera Sheikh’s life has been the media. She was the face of the Godhra aftermath, her doe eyes and schoolgirl plaits as instantly identifiable as Qutubuddin Ansari’s terror-stricken eyes and folded hands. ‘‘The mob began gathering in the evening,’’ she relived the nightmare of March 1, 2002, several times for the media. ‘‘So large, they could not be counted. They were violent, armed, shouting anti-Muslim slogans. We were 25 of us inside the house. We made a run for the terrace. Some who could not make it locked themselves in a first floor room, they were asphyxiated and burnt to death.’’ Zaheera was as vocal before officials. ‘‘It was a dance of death that continued all night. The roof top was hot and our feet were turning red. We had no option but to hide behind the parapet,’’ she told the police. The statement became the basis of an FIR filed by the Panigate police. Four children and three women died that night in the Best Bakery building. The next morning, when some of the survivors tried to flee, five people were killed by the waiting mob, two were chased to nearby fields and murdered in the dawn light. Despite the toll it took on her, Zaheera told her story over and over for the press, the relief committee members, government officials. ‘‘The police would abuse me, they would make me wait from morning till evening for compensation,’’ she complained one year after the Best Bakery incident, her credentials established as the case’s star witness. Home, sweet home BARELY eight months later, the Vadodara police are her best friends, her security cover, her passport to the life she once knew. ‘‘The Vadodara court judgment was right. I got justice here,’’ Zaheera, 20, announced on Wednesday at a city hotel as senior policemen looked on. The Vadodara-Mumbai-Vadodara part of Zaheera’s life may be just 16 months old—she moved to the metro under activist Teesta Setalvad’s care on July 7, 2003—but she has probably travelled further along that road than her father did while moving from Basti, in Uttar Pradesh, to Vadodara in search of a better life in 1990. Habibullah Sheikh started off working at a bakery; before long, he had set up his own Best Bakery in Hanuman Tekri, a poor locality dominated by migrants from eastern UP. He died just a month before the March madness that changed the life of his family members, possibly forever. Is Zaheera’s volte-face a desperate attempt to turn the clock back to a simpler time? Or is it the baser instinct of greed at work? Speculation for the reason behind the about-turn runs the whole gamut among Zaheera’s one-time neighbours. ‘‘Their family was always tadak-bhadak (flashy and loud),’’ says Maqsood Diwan, neighbours of the Sheikhs at Hanuman Tekri and the post-riots relief camp. ‘‘We almost died when we saw Zaheera issuing her latest statement on television. We feel stabbed in the back.’’ There’s also the Shrivastava factor. Most locals swear by the help extended by BJP MLA Madhu and his Congress councillor brother Chandrakant in settling them in. Flip-flop fashion THOUGH Zaheera’s latest stand—that she accused innocent persons under pressure from Setalvad and that BJP legislator Madhu Shrivastava had no role to play in her earlier court statements—has no evidentiary value, it is a blow for the prosecution’s case in the retrial being currently conducted in Mumbai. Locals believe there is a pattern to Zaheera’s flip-flops. For instance, the NGO People’s Union for Civil Liberties offered to help her complete her school education in Maharashtra. After agreeing initially, she did not take up the opportunity. Ditto with her younger brother. Though provided books and an SSC admit card, he did not appear for the board exams. Hanuman Tekri resident Rahmatullah, now state president of the National Loktantrik Party, remembers sheltering Nafitullah—Zaheera’s elder brother—when he fell out with his mother after his marriage to a Hindu. ‘‘He paid me back by taking me to visit Madhu Shrivastava, who threatened me,’’ he says. Even as the Vadodara police investigate this complaint, Rahmatullah is planning a defamation suit against the entire family. ‘‘Zaheera is a black spot on womanhood, on Islam and the UP Muslims residing here. She has made us lose credibility,’’ he alleges. So who is the real Zaheera? A victim of circumstances? An opportunist with an eye for the main chance? Or just a simple girl who wants her life back? Chances are the truth about her is somewhere out there—with the truth of the Best Bakery case. ‘Zaheera has hurt her own credibility’ Teesta Setalvad fought for the Best Bakery retrial. And she says that case is still strong, regardless of what Zaheera says BJP legislator Madhu Shrivastava and his brother Chandrakant are not among the 21 accused in the Best Bakery case. Their names became inextricably linked with the carnage, however, when Zaheera Shaikh and her mother Sehrunnisa alleged in July 2003 that the Shrivastavas had threatened them into lying in court. ‘‘I have always maintained that I was falsely implicated in the case. Zaheera’s recent statement vindicates my stand,’’ says Madhu. ‘‘Allah Taala has given Zaheera the sadbuddhi (good sense) to speak the truth during the month of Ramzan.’’ Dismissing the charge that he played communal politics, he claims, ‘‘Even when Gujarat was burning, there wasn’t a single Muslim casualty in my mixed-population constituency, Waghodia. ‘‘My name was dragged into the case by my political opponent. Even when I went to the US in October 2003, after Zaheera and her mother field affidavits against me in the Supreme Court, the word was that I had run away from impending arrest. While the truth is that I was organising Navratri garbas and religious functions.’’ While Zaheera’s statement takes the wind out of the sails of her previous accusations of coercion and threat, the 21 accused continue to face re-trial. Among them are tea vendors Tulsibhai, Kamlesh and Shailesh Tadvi; mason Pratapsinh Ravjibhai Chauhan; truck-driver Yasin Khokhar and labourer Jagdish Chunilal Rajput. Syed Khalique Ahmed